Friday, March 14, 2014

Where can I turn for Peace

Where can I turn for peace?
Where is my solace
When other sources cease to make me whole?
When with a wounded heart, anger, or malice,
I draw myself apart,
Searching my soul?
Where, when my aching grows,
Where, when I languish,
Where, in my need to know, where can I run?
Where is the quiet hand to calm my anguish?
Who, who can understand?
He, only One.
He answers privately,
Reaches my reaching
In my Gethsemane, Savior and Friend.
Gentle the peace he finds for my beseeching.
Constant he is and kind,
Love without end.


As I sat in Sacrament this last fast Sunday our family had very specific things we were fasting and praying for. I sat there focused and tried my best to hear my Heavenly Father’s guidance and/or directions that he may have for my family. I ended up reading in the Hymn book and came across one of my most favorite songs that I haven't heard in a long time “Where can I turn for peace”.  Reading through this hymn took me back to one of the darkest times of my life, a time when I needed peace; I needed to know that I could get through the trials that had been placed in front of me. I remember hearing the words to this song as a girl read them in Relief Society, getting chills and knowing that this was a message from my Heavenly Father for me.  He was there for me and He would be the one to help me get through any hard time that I would face. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace as I continued to read the words. It was a pivotal time in my life and in my testimony. My hardships didn’t go away in fact they lasted and intensified for several more years. But through the heartache I learned to rely on the Savior and allowed him to help me and at many points carry me through my days. In the midst of pure chaos I was really able to find peace through Him.

I look at where my life is now I literally have all the blessings that I wanted and waited for, for so many years! This song helped me to reflect on the blessings that I have now and reminded me of the dark hard roads that I had to walk to get here. I was reminded that the only place I ever found true and lasting peace was when I turned to an all loving Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ. Those dark days helped me to get to know them, love them and trust them. I hate that life gets crazy and I seem to forget that sometimes. It also made me realize once again that I am where I am and I am who I am because of those hard times. I had so much to learn and I still have so far to go. I just have different challenges and trials in my life now than I did back then. I needed the reminder that when life gets hard as I’m sure it will a million times over I do KNOW where I can go and I am grateful for that!

I’m not sure why I felt the need to share this.  When I needed to hear the words of this song it was shared to me by a girl I didn't even know and I will forever be grateful that she shared her testimony and love for this song with me! I hope these beautiful words will help, inspire and heal someone else the way they did for me.  I am so thankful for my amazing husband, my beautiful baby girl, and our families which include Mya’s wonderful birth mom. They are all also a great source of peace and I know a heavenly gift to help me through this crazy ride of life! 


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