A few weeks ago we found out my mom has breast cancer. I don't know if I have ever felt the type of panic or pain that I felt when I heard her say those words.
My mom is my absolute HERO! I kept thinking no not my mom.....why......I can't make it here without her.....we need her.....I wish I could do this for her or at least take all the pain away! Ugh I have felt so helpless. I feel like its been hard to get back on track. I almost feel as though my feet are stuck in concrete and I can't move.
This whole experience has caused me to reflect on my life and on how much I appreciate my mom and everything she has done for me. It made me realize I want to be more like her. More selfless, more loving and kind to everyone, more willing to give of my time to others in need just like she does, more spiritual. I just want my kids to feel about me the way I feel about her. She took and still takes such great care of my entire family! My daughter LOVES her Grammy Pammy, she doesn't even care if I'm around as long as my mom is there!
My mom has the biggest heart and does so much for other people. Even though I wonder why such an amazing women has to go through such an awful trial I completely believe that our Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us. We may not understand it right now but I know that anything he has us go through he provides us with the necessary amount of strength and endurance to get through it. He provides earthly angels to bear us up and help us make it through the tough times. I have seen this in my own life and right now with my mom, she is so positive and there are so many people lending their hands wherever she needs them!
I am eternally thankful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I know that my mom will make it through this rough patch in her life. I know that my family can also make it through. I also know we couldn't do it without the love and support of our Father in Heaven. All the hard times in my life He has always been there and given me strength beyond my own.
I feel so lucky to have such an amazing husband. Without him I don't know what I would do. He's so busy with work, school, putting our yard in, ect, ect, ect and he always puts me and Mya at the top of his list! He is one of the tender mercies the Lord has given me and I feel blessed to call him mine! I also have an amazing family that sticks together through thick and thin. I love my family and I want to make sure I get to be with all of them forever!
I love my mom! I know she will fight hard to get rid of this yucky cancer. I am so thankful for the wonderful person she is and for all she has taught me.
